Tuesday, April 05, 2011

30 weeks

It's about time this belly made a debut on the blog. With Maddox I did a belly shot every single month (bare belly too, mind you), after 4 years I felt like I was pregnant for my first time all over again. With this one I feel like I birthed Maddox just last month and the novelty of a round belly has worn off quickly.  In some ways 10 weeks still feels like soooo far away.  10 more weeks of tossing and turning all night. 10 more weeks of heartburn. 10 more weeks of pretending like I can fit into my clothes because I have a severe aversion to maternity clothes. 10 more weeks of grunting every time I bend over. 10 more weeks of emotional meltdowns....but at the same time 10 weeks seems soooo close. Only 10 more weeks of only 3 kids. Only 10 more weeks before I'm up every 2 hours. Only 10 more weeks of eating whatever I want and not having to suck in.  Only 10 more weeks until I have to start thinking about getting back into shape. Only 10 more weeks before I can no longer blame those emotional meltdowns on pregnancy.  And in 10 more weeks I will no longer have to stare at that ultrasound picture hanging on my fridge and wonder what he will look like. In 10 weeks (maybe sooner? hopefully sooner?) I'll get to hold this little man for the first time and I seriously can not wait to meet him.  I'm having such mixed emotions because we are 99% sure this is going to be the last.  I'm excited and sad to never be pregnant again and I am excited to never go through labor again but so sad to never have that moment where you get to hold your baby for the first time again.  I spent all day going through Kylie's old clothes.  Being the extreme opposite of a pack rat, I thought I would be so excited to get rid of the clutter and extra boxes so I was surprised at how emotional it was.  They're not just clothes, they're memories.  The outfit she wore home from the hospital, what she wore when she took her first step, what she wore on her first birthday and so many adorable dresses that I have been anxious to have another little girl to wear. But there are definately advantages of moving on to the next stage of life, so for now I'll just have to focus on those.  As far as names go, I'm really pushing for Ryder.  I think Jason likes it more than he'll admit.  He can't come up with anything better, I just think he has commitment issues.  I'll probably wait until I'm in labor when he's overcome with sympathy of watching me push out his 4th child, then I'll convince him that Ryder it is. Anyways...here's to hoping these next 10 weeks just fly right by!

7 comments:

Janessa said...

You are too cute with that little basketball belly of yours. You were telling me the other day that you feel so much bigger with this one then you did with Jayden (and Maddox?). I'm having a hard time remembering you being smaller then this! You look so great!!! I think you should post weekly belly pics to make up for lost time with this one. I may be the only one that cares to see them, but that doesn't matter, right? Looking back, these next 10 weeks will surly fly by. Getting there though may not seem to fly by quite so fast. I'm so excited to meet Ryder too (I'll just assume that your name commitment while in labor plan works;) and can't wait to see what he looks like and who he is. Glad you survived the emotional day of getting rid of all your girl clothes. That is sad. But like you said, there are lots of fun and exciting things to look forward to with this next stage of life!

Diana said...

Amen sister, amen. Please let the next two months fly by, like in a blink of an eye simply for our sakes right? I have name commitment issues, too. We certainly know the name of this baby and yet I refuse to say it out loud, or let anyone other than Marc and the boys say it out loud. It just makes me cringe to hear anyone else say it right now. Weird. I know. I have issues.

Hollie Hanson said...

You are so cute! And TINY! Seriously hating you right now ;) JK
10 more weeks, ahhh there is something about that 30 week mark....
I think it's almost more relief than the 36 week mark I'm at which feels like now it is never coming! ha haaa
I LOVE the name Ryder! Should I monogram something and send it to you so then your hubbs can't say no? :)
Keep posting pics! I love reading your blog!

Jamie Y. said...

You guys are nice, but seriously it must be the clothes or the angle that make me look small b/c trust me, I am huge. Just ask my kids, they tell me every day.

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Jodee said...

You have always been the cutest little pregnant lady ever! You may feel huge for you but compared to the rest of the world you are TINY!!!
You need to stop going through those things of Kylies when you are pregnant still. Go through them after the baby comes and after the hormones have settled down a bit. You will be back you your old "opposite of a pack rat" self;)
Hang in there, I love you!

The Laytons said...

My goodness you look good! I do NOT take pictures of me pregnant because I seriously look like a whale, no joke. Good Luck, I can't wait to see pictures of your sweet little guy.