Tuesday, January 11, 2011
For posterity sake so that my third son doesn't read this years from now and think that his mother didn't want him, and because I am feeling guilty for sounding so ungrateful....I must say that I am over the shock and am feeling at peace that we were meant to have another boy in our home, and what a blessing he is going to be in our lives. I'm looking at the upsides of our situation and there are quite a few. I always wanted to be the only girl and have all brothers (although now I can't imagine life without my sister, but shhhh don't tell Kylie that). She will never have to share a room or clothes, she'll always be a little spoiled and get extra attention and she'll always have brothers to look out for her. Jason is excited to have "his boys" to take on snowboarding trips, lake trips and campouts, and they will have so much fun making memories and bonding together (and meanwhile Kylie and I will enjoy shopping, getting our nails done and watching chick flicks in a quiet house while they're gone). And there's also the emotional rollercoaster that comes with girls, but that goes without saying. I've also decided that I don't need to feel the pressure to try for one more just incase it might be a girl. As much as I want a sister for Kylie, I realized that even if the next one is a girl, there will be like 11 years between them and they really won't have that much in common. My sister and I are so close because we are only a year apart and have always been in the same stage of life together. So I will just have to be the mom and sister that she never had and be grateful that we have such a close relationship. So there you go, I still think it was okay to be sad for a day (although Jason thought that it was mean :) but I got it all out of my system and now I can honestly say that I am excited and grateful for a new little boy and the joy that he will bring.