It's 6:58 pm on a Wednesday. Just contemplating how I need a blazer in every color of the rainbow while sweeping up vanilla wafers and veggie straws that I used to keep Ryder entertained while I made this for dinner. It was good, but eveyone was guilty of picking out the veggies and eating only the pasta. I wish my love for asparagus overpowered my love of all things carb. Jayden, as always, cried with every bite that he ate and told me I was so mean for making him eat. I told him CPS would take him away and he would be an orphan if I didn't feed him. Not one of my better parenting moments, but he did eat it. I also threw away a bag of jelly beans, only to pull it out later when I was going through sugar withdrawl like some crack addict. Not one of my prouder human moments. I told the kids they could either stay outside and play or help me clean up. Kylie, bless her heart, was the only one who offered to stay inside and help. She said I looked tired, because I was. The babies are always up at the crack of dawn and I can't seem to get to bed at a decent hour. I don't want to waste my quiet evenings by sleeping but I regret it every morning. She cleaned up the toys then tells me the veggies I just blended up for Ryder look like throw up so I send her out to play. I prefer to have them outside while I clean up anyways, I like watching them out the window and I like having a quiet house. I just put Ryder down, he has been so grumpy lately. Dang teeth. Every day by 5:00 I'm exhausted and start the countdown until bedtime. The kids are all bathed and clean and I look out the window to see Kylie turning the sprinklers on under the tramp. She said a wet tramp makes her bounce higher when she does her back layout and back tuck. She amazes me on the trampoline, but now her and Maddox are soaking wet. Jayden's idea of playing outside is playing Kylie's itouch on the patio. Atleast he's dry. And atleast he's not playing Roblox. I can't stand that game, I think it's slowing my computer down so I banned him from it. Without the computer to play he went swimming with us after school then he and Kylie wore their swimsuits in the bath and stayed up there for 45 minutes. They emptied the entire bottle of handsoap in the tub and there was water all over the floor, but I was glad they spent time together. The older they get the less they have in common and it makes me sad that they don't play like they used to. I'm looking forward to Jason coming home. He sent me some sweet texts today that made my day. I made Maddox take off his wet pajamas before coming inside and now he's outside naked cutting the grass with scissors. Earlier he told me he had a dream that he had a big chest like a mommy and then I overheard him singing "Nationwide is on your side" while playing. What goes on in his little head will always remain a mystery to me. Jason got home a little after 7 and I warmed dinner up for him, I wish we could eat dinner together as a family. We worked together to get the rest of the kids in bed. Maddox fell asleep fast, which is a welcome change. He tells me he has to come out of his room and ask me 3 questions every night. Which he does. It's 7:42 and Kylie forgets she has to make an outline for her Arizona Wax Museum project. I'm not too happy. The door knocks, it's the YW doing a service scavanger hunt. They unload the dishwasher which makes Jayden and Kylie happy because that means they don't have to do it in the morning. Now I am sitting here enjoying the quiet house, watching Nightline with Jason while we're both on our computers and coexisting on our seperate couches. We save the talking for bed. It's 9:47 and I have a feeling I'm going to stay up way too late and start the cycle all over again tomorrow. Such is life.